Looking back over the last year, it almost seems as though everything happened over a span of a few years instead of just one. It was a busy, trying year.
We dealt with uncertainty, the possibility of moving, the stress of keeping a house meticulous for eight straight months while our home sat on the market (and believe you and me, with three kids, that’s extremely hard to do). We experienced highs and lows for Brandon at work, large fluctuations we didn’t expect in his industry that directly affects his available work, and came to realize that my work does, in fact, need to come from home and not outside it.
We struggled. We overcame. We struggled some more.
And although the struggles are still stacking up in this season of life for us, we have so much to be thankful for.
We have been wonderfully blessed by God each and every single day. I’m not exaggerating in the least when I say there were many months we didn’t know how we were going to get by, let alone put gas in the car to get to work. You know what? God provided. As He always does.
This year has been hard on us all, but it’s also brought me closer to God than I’ve ever been, and for that, I couldn’t be more thankful. Learning to let go of my need for control is something I’ve struggled with for so long in my spiritual journey. While I’m still faced with the decision to let go or hold on every day, I’m more confident than ever in putting my total faith in God. He’s got this. He’s got me. He’s got my family. He’s got us. And we will make it through this season only because of Him.
I also learned so much this past year about myself. I learned to stop pushing forward with business decisions just to prove a point, to prove that I can do what I said I’ll do. I stopped saying “yes” just because Susie Q with the perfect Instagram account says yes, and it seems to work for her. I stopped throwing myself into utter chaos and total frustration just trying to add more to my to-do list to feel more successful. And I started examining my life, my goals, and the things that make me truly happy.
Because of that, I was able to make many hard but needed decisions in my business and personal life. I let go of some of the things that took too much time from my family and held me back from a healthy relationship with them. I added some new and exciting things and learned very quickly what needed to be tweaked and changed to make it a success. I went from ‘doing for the sake of doing’ to ‘doing with a purpose’.
Making those changes will help me focus on my word for 2016, and I believe they will steer me toward being a better wife, a better mother, and a better business owner.
I am so ready to lunge forward into 2016! I’m tired, I’m weary, and I’m ready for change. I’m faithful that God has that change right around the corner, and I can’t wait to see where it takes us!
This past year has been a game changer for me in the most important way: spiritually. And if God can make the bad from 2015 that good, I can’t wait to see how great He can make the good of 2016!